This is The second part of my conversion story. If you have not read part one, click here.
Now a couple of months or so had passed by since having the experience of seeing Jesus and having him speak to me in such a profound way. The only thing though is I never even really thought too much about what had happened. I kept living the same way that I was but I was beginning to have more of an interest in God. I bought a few books and read them and was feeling the pull towards Him.
At the time I was working at a Restaurant as a waiter. (Boy did I despise doing that job. For all of you that wait tables for a living I have MUCH respect for you. I have never tipped lousy since :) One night was especially bad. I had made quite a bit of money that night. The most I had done in weeks. After I got finished counting my money for the night, the end result was not what I had expected. I lost over $100 somehow and brought home almost nothing. At this point I broke. I couldn't take it anymore. (Just to interject here, it wasn't just the money it was everything surrounding me at that time and I just popped) I felt like I was depressed all the time anyways, and this just was the icing on the cake. I didn't know what I was feeling. I was angry, sad, frustrated. I just couldn't take living my life the way I was anymore.
On my way home while I was driving I started letting it all out with God. Crying hysterically. I couldn't control myself. I yelled and cried out to him saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry please help me! Please!" Now when I tell you this keep in mind I was still driving my car on the Florida Turnpike. It was late probably sometime around midnight, so nobody was really on the road. I felt something like a rush into my soul and I was suddenly in a beautiful place under a tree. Everything was perfect. Tree's, grass, just awesome and peaceful. (The only thing I can guess is that this was some sort of inner locution. I wasn't aware at all that I was still driving my car) I could somehow sense or maybe even see the Spirit of God coming across this vast land. He was coming towards me and as he reached to were I was he said to me "So what have you learned?" My response back to him was "I learned that I need to be more like you"As soon as I had completed that phrase I felt an INCREDIBLY POWERFUL rush into my soul. It was absolutely AMAZING! The joy that
I felt in that moment couldn't even come remotely close to the greatest joy felt here on earth. I can't even begin to describe it correctly. Amazing! That's all I can say. At that moment I knew exactly how God sees us and the enormous love he has for us, and I understood the relationship between us. If you were to ask me to describe what I understood...I couldn't even tell you. It was something I knew just in that moment.
After it was over I came to somehow and was still driving my car. I was on cloud 9 after that. I felt great and was praising God all the way home. Since that very day I have not been able to go through a single day without thinking about Jesus. My life in that moment changed forever. I am completely aware of my sins and realize the need for conversion each and everyday.
Now in part III I will explain why I am Catholic. Something that could come as a surprise is that I was ready to be part of any Church out there. I left that part in the hands of God himself...
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